Alright, I don’t even know where to start this. It is actually weird writing down things, that I haven’t even told my family or friends yet. I expose my journey and actual mood with a bunch of strangers, that are strange enough to read this.
I think when I decided to grab the opportunity to work for google and relocation to London, I was a little starry-eyed and hasty. To be honest, it was not even a decision, it was more a: „Omg, sure when can I go, I can’t believe this!“ I imagined that everything will be perfect. Lovely London and me will be friends from the beginning and I will have the best time of my life, starting at day 1.
Now: Reality Check.
Usually, I am quite an easy-going and chill person. It needs quite a lot to annoy me. Congrats „London“ you did it! The beginning was annoying but not further a real problem. My flight was delayed for 1 hour because a lady felt in the bus that brought the people to the airplane and then they needed to take her luggage out of the plane. Sounds like fun, in a tight room with 600 bags. The flight itself and the journey to my apartment were rough and complicated, but I finally arrived.
After waiting for another hour to finally get into my room, I wanted to have a shower but decided not too, because I like to shower alone and not in company with spiders. Ok,do you feel me? Suddenly I felt everything crashing down on me. I could not hide the tears and felt more alone than ever.
Then I decided to pick myself up and went for a short exploring run in my area. I cleared my head and felt a little better. After my run, I treated myself to a dinner at the famous Wildfood Cafe, where I indulged on a raw vegan burger with superseed bun and sweet potato wedges on the side. With a happy tummy and a clear head, I decided that I am going to ask the agency for another place to stay.
I guess what I want to say is, that life is not always what we expect. The important thing is not to fall into despair and stop believing in the positive. Learning to let go of the things that happened, searching for a solution. Recognizing that every day won’t be sunny. (especially not in London ;))
And if you still find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember it’s only in the black of night you see the stars. <3
Good night for now.